I have not been feeling school lately I am so ready for it to be over. I’ve been trying to keep a positive attitude but people and things keep slightly changing my frame of mind. I really can not wait to take a vacation from school. I’ve been in school for too long in my life. No I am not thinking about dropping out of school I just need a break from it. People always say just get it over it while you’re young I mean I understand that but I really need to get myself organized and together before I keep rushing into school and not doing well. I mean everybody have their different ways on how to deal with education and I’m at a time of my life where I might need a break or my own space to think. I really need to learn how to be more independent I mean I do get a lot of support from back home but only if they knew how it is to be a college student and I don’t want to let them down but at the end of the day I’m doing this for me because I’m the one in college. For the last three weeks of this quarter I’m going to try this new organization system for me to improve myself as a college student and a person who can manage their time well. And if this do not work the I will make a new organization system because this will make me a better student and person for the future career I will like to pursue. Until then I’m trying not to stress out and stick in there.
PROCRASTINATION!!!
I will admit that procrastination is an issue for me when it comes to me trying to complete my work in a timely manner. For me it’s hard to focus and complete my work in the daytime because there are so many distractions so I will wait until its nighttime or midnight to complete my work. That is an issue because then I am tired and I need to be resting not doing work so I lack sleep. This soon begins to become a cycle because I will be tired all day and in between my classes try to get some sleep but it’s not enough time for me. Also, this is my first time being a freshman in college and taking four courses so I’m still trying to learn how to manage and balance it all so I will not fall behind.
When I begin to procrastinate I am trying to get some rest or relaxing by reading a book or listening to music so I will not begin stress. I’m not a party type so I do not go out on the weekends I either stay in, go off-campus to shop, or mainly I just go home. When I go home I hardly get any work done because I’m too busy hanging out with family and friends so even when I try to make time in between to do my work it doesn’t get done because I don’t feel like doing it or can not focus. When I’m on my way back to school or at school after coming back from home that’s when I do all of my work like a day or two before it is due because on Friday’s I go home and I don’t feel like doing it because I just had a whole week of doing work and I need a break.
However, since I started spring quarter I have changed these habits of procrastination. When I’m first assigned an assignment I do it right away because I know I’m not going to work on it when I need a break from work so I do it to get it out of the way. I’m breaking out of this habit because this is not a good habit to have while I’m in college. I’m not going to let this habit be the reason why I do not succeed while in college and after. Breaking it now will eliminate a lot of other hurdles I will need to overcome while being a college student.
My Final Decision on Choosing a Major!!!
Sociology is the major I have decided I will like to focus on so I will be able to declare it by the end of my sophomore year. At first I was thinking about double majoring in Sociology and Economics or Business management because I am going to become an Entrepreneur and a small business owner. My perspective has change now that I had a meeting with my Academic Advisor because I thought in order to be business owner or an Entrepreneur you will need to have your Bachelor’s degree in Business or Economics but I was wrong. Also, math is my weakest subject and I do not enjoy doing at all so that’s why for my first year of college I avoided taking any Math classes and in Economics there is heavy math. I took an Sociology class my senior year of high school and I really enjoyed it so it was an field I was always interested in but I wasn’t sure if I was going to be able to pursue it with wanting to be an business owner. However, my Academic Advisor was explaining to me that I do not need a degree in business just to own a business and also it will be smarter for me to major in Sociology because with business you have to network and in sociology your learning about society and how it function. Next, I have discuss with my advisor that I will like study abroad and maybe a French speaking country because I will also like to either minor in French or double major in French or Spanish. I have already taken my placement test for Spanish but I will like to try something new, a language that I’ve never learned before. For French I will not need to take a placement test all I will need to do is enroll into an Intro to French class. I haven’t quite decided yet if I will like to study abroad my junior year or senior year. That is something that I will decide after I fully complete my plans after my sophomore year of college but so far I may be considering doing it my senior year. The places I may be interested in studying abroad in so far is Cape Town, Thailand and Paris.
Me and the Love of my life!
This is one of the loves of my life besides my mom. He’s funny, energetic, smart and a handful all at the same time. Since he was five months old I’ve had him, I started taking care of him. Wherever I went he went, he was always by my side. I use to sacrifice not going out with my friends or to parties and kickbacks just to be with him, my house was his second home. Even though I do not have any children on my own yet I really feel like this is my son because I did a lot for him and he respects and listen to me as if I was his mother. Lol when he was younger he use to call me mommy and then he started calling me daddy but I had to let him know like “no I’m your big cousin Nique” and he will just stare at me with his big brown young innocent eyes. Just recently when I seen him he finally said my name and he just kept saying “Nique I love you!” and I got him on video saying it it was the cutest thing ever, he really touched my heart. I always use to take care of the younger generations in my family if their parent or parents wasn’t doing a good enough a job I will step in. I always felt like it was my duty because if they’re not going to do it then who will and family have to look out for one another especially the future children. This is the longest I’ve ever been away from him honestly it was harder leaving him then my mom lol but no really I felt like I was failing him. On the other hand, I know that I was going to advance my education so in the future I will be successful and I can really take care of him the way I want but for now my love to him is enough because he’s still a toddler, the TERRIBLE TWO!
On- Campus Vs. Off- Campus
I’m really having difficulties on finding a place off- campus like there’s always something that prevents me and my roommates on living there. Here’s the list:
- Credit Check Background: First off were College students and most of us is freshmen like we don’t have no credit right now that was the last thing on our mind when we graduate to start working on getting credit. We were more worried about getting ready for college.
- Co-Signer: We don’t have anyone that is willing to co-sign for all of us maybe individually but not as a party like come on now who is willing to do that now a days because something always go wrong or people don’t feel comfortable doing that. Also they have to own property in California and have good credit.
- Parent Permission: Since we are all under 21 we can have are parents sign for us but they also have to have good credit and none of our parents have good credit.
But I will love to stay off-campus because i will save so much more money and I’m kind of tired of the dining hall food well no I AM tired of the dining hall food. Also, it’s smaller and I’m paying more for the rooms in the apt. and it’s not worth it at all, I can liven in a single off-campus for way cheaper than on-campus sharing a dorm room because that;s what it feels like. Another reason is that there’s too may rules like if I’m going to college aka “adult school” I will like to be treated like one not like I’m a high schooler in boarding school or something. In addition, I need to learn how to be more independent being on my own cooking for myself and managing my money wisely and having to pay for my necessities and bills all on my own because I need the experience early so when I graduate from college I want be dumbfounded in this world!
What irritates Nique?
Or in other words what are my biggest pet peeves? Well hmmm, I guess I’ll start with
- Touching my neck, I really hate when someone touches my neck because my muscles there can easily become tensed with the slightest touch. When I was younger around five years old me and my mom will always play fight when we wake up in the morning and one time she threw me on the bed and I snapped my neck and ever since then it does not feel well when someone touches my neck.
- Snoring, I hate being in the room or sleeping next to someone who snore because I am a very light sleeper and I can hear everything in my sleep to the train going past maybe a few miles away to the toilet water making sounds in the nearby restroom. I can not fall asleep when someone is snoring loudly or heavy breathing and it really irks me to my soul and I just can’t help it and I want be able to get any sleep unless I have a distraction around to bored me to sleep.
- Smacking with your mouth open, like really close your mouth. First of that’s not lady like or being a gentleman by smacking loudly with a mouth full of food. Secondly, that is really gross and can really ruin someone’s appetite. I know it ruins mines like it’s so simple just close it the only exception is if you have disability and can’t then that is very understandable but if you just doing it just to be doing it then cut it out please STOP.
- Liars, like really why lie come on now really the truth does not always hurt so don’t even use that sorry excuse. I don’t care if it was a little white lie just don’t lie to me. See the way my views are set up I wouldn’t even force or tell my future children that Santa Clause, Tooth Fairy, Easter Bunny, etc. really exist because this generation rarely even have a fun childhood anymore because it’s all about technology and they can google those made up figures to see if they really exist anymore so to me it’s really no point. On the other hand, that does not mean that they’re not going to have a fun childhood because they are without those made up people and technology similar to how I did.
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